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Dec. 19th, 2004 @ 08:35 pm It's Snowin !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How I'm Feelin: weirdweird
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: Desperate Housewives - sorta stupid show

I'm gunna write in white - cause it's snowin... jus got back from the Christmas Cantata @ Church all went well - we sang off key & every1 still managed to love us. It was actually pretty boring, after my part was over, at I sat there w/the rest of the kids, i'm still one, watching the rest of the show and passing notes to Amber, like a complete loser :) Devin was taking pics with Kamal & I really wanted to hang out w/them, but my mom was there so it wouldn't have been as much fun & I would've been question all the way back home **So who do you like? Where's he go to school? Who're his parents? He seems like a nice boy** I really didn't want to endure this on the way home, so I just stayed in my seat, glancing @ Devin every now and then.






<3 Hubby

I'm so glad it's winter break & I don't have to go to school tomorrow



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James Blake
Dec. 18th, 2004 @ 10:21 pm My Happy Ending 04
How I'm Feelin: peacefulpeaceful
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: MTV - Pimp My Ride

Well the year is slowly... well actually, quickly coming to an end, and I truly can't wait. At least 15 people have asked me what I wanted to christmas and I tell the material things that I want, but there is only one thing (or person) I want for Christmas, but I know that my wish won't come true unfortunately, I think I have screwed everything up. Last night as the Tennis Mercantile Challenge - I could've sworn I saw him, but then when the guy got on the elevator - i realized it wasn't him, but the guy was a lot cuter than him - but i still found myself a little disappointed. It's really pathetic, I think a/b him so much it's rediculous, I can't get over the fact that he won't speak to me in the hallways, but he has no problem staring at me, ok enough a/b him.

The match last night was incredibly boring... Scoville Jenkins & Phillip Simmonds matched were good, but Davenport & Sharapove - i hate both of them - Davenport is such a bad sport - she was playin for charity & she got pissed at some of the line calls, who the hell cares, & Sharapove is such a bitch - she's Russian so she should act like it - she's not American - I just wish she would be pround to be Russian and not act like she doesn't even know Russia exists - Dasha & I agree that she should at least pronounce her last name correctly haha.

No tennis tomorrow - thank God - oh Marc, from tennis camp is in my class, it was good seein him, apparently Christiana & Teyer & Coach Derrick go there to - if only everyone else from camp went there - that would make my day


well i'm tired & i should probably go to bed & explain to my mere how i accidently spent $61 @ Bath and Body Works

What's Goin On
James Blake
Dec. 16th, 2004 @ 09:25 pm Brandon.... but there's always SOMEONE else
How I'm Feelin: sickso tired
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: Only U - Ashanti

I don't kno how this color will show up, but o well.

Not much has happened since i last wrote. Latin class is still the same, Tyler Pacy broke his foot & Ben Jarso sprained his ankle, but Joey doesn't really talk 2 Becca ne more

Well back to my on going saga w/Brandon - we (Sarah & I) were leaving & we were goin down the stairs & he happened 2 be infront of us, while we were comin down the stairs he kept stairin @ me & i was like  hello? - i see u lookin @ me - i really wanted 2 scream out Hi Brandon - but i controlled myself cause there were lik 3 other ppl in the stair well. But did i do something? I'm completely clueless, I have no idea what has happened - in the beginning of the year, everything was cool, but now it's like he can't speak - i don't kno - i really shouldn't worry a/b him - there are other people I can be concerned w/ like Devin - nuthin like a good church boy.... haha

in class Cross was like "Hey Hubbs" - i jus thought that was hilarious - i was gunna change my sn to heyhubbs28 - but ppl said that sounds like a fat kid - so what should I change it too?????


<3 Hubby

What's Goin On
James Blake
Dec. 15th, 2004 @ 03:45 pm Stolen from Bailey
How I'm Feelin: curiouscurious
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: racquel's singing along 2 destiny's child

01. I have a cell phone.
02. I am obsessed with having my shoes match my outfit.  - not obsessed but i like when they do
03. I'm the youngest child.- only child
04. I am a boy. - girl
05. I love wearing dangly earrings.
06. I am a gemini. - taurus
07. I love someone more than they will ever know.
08. I'm obsessed with dogs.- i like them, but i'm not obsesses 

09. I can't live without lipgloss.- usually
10. I can't live without music.
11. I lived in a different state in the U.S. before. .
12. I get an allowance.
13. I want to be in high school forever. not really
14. I've seen Jason Mraz in person.

15. I get annoyed easily. - sometimes
16. I eventually want kids. two
17. I love to read. i never get around to it though
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I am addicted to the Disney Channel. *not addicted
20. I am a girl. well obviously since number 4 isnt bolded...

21. Im a worried person. more than most people think
22. I'm in high school.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I like to swim
. not good though
26. My dreams are sometimes weird.
27. One of my best friends is gay.

28. I have way too many purses.- u can never have enough
29. I've seen Fight Club at least 45 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day. *unfortunately i cant...
31. I've never fallen asleep during school. - movie time in english class
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. It bugs me sometimes when people are really late.
34. I procrastinate.

35. I love autumn.
36. I have too many clothes. u can never have too many
37. I like to sleep in. unfortunetly im not capable
38. I've failed a class in high school. *almost....
39. I'm afraid of spiders.
40. I have nail polish on my fingernails or toe nails right now.
41. I've watched the O.C. -better question, who hasnt?
42. I love my hair. *like the color
43. I never fight with my parents.
44. I like the beach. not a whole lot
45. I have never had the chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future.

47. I have family out of state.
48. I can't wait till my birthday.
49. I love the show Rich Girls - sorta stupid
50. I love my friends.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure sometimes
. pretty much all the time
53. I have never broken a bone. - arm in 3rd grade 
54. I'm taking german class.
55. I have a laptop.
56. I love girls that love music.???
57. I state the obvious sometimes just to reassure myself.
59. I dance randomly sometimes. all the time
60. I'm a good singer. HAHAHAHAHA
61. I sometimes like cleaning my room.
62. I never get jealous.
63. I love cute underwear.
64. I love doing math - like counting how much money i have
65. I cry when I see homeless people. i dont cry, but it is very sad
66. I like hugs. love hugs
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I love God.

69. I am too forgiving sometimes. all the time
70. I have my own vehicle.
71. I like high school.
72. I have a lot of under garments. you kinda need to... 
73. I'm a daddy's girl. I used to be
74. I love kisses on the forehead. so sweet

75. I love the color pink more than the rest. it's one of my favs
76. I love to sew.
77. I have blue eyes.
78. I like being a passenger in vehicles at nighttime.
79. I play soccer on a team.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I've never lied.- who hasn't
82. I like comfy sweatpants. but i dont look good in them
83. Paul Walker is cute.
84. I love the smell of the rain. and the snow...
85 I am right handed.
86. I hate getting shots.
87. I'm a perfectionist.- i try 2 be 
88. I've gone mooning.
- kerry shanked me in fron of a whole audience
89. I hate the feeling of failure.
90. I love camping.
91. I like going on rides.

92. I can be quite shy. very shy actually
94. There's something I will never forget, either because I can't or because I just don't want to.
95. I love looking at pictures.
96. I love music.
97. I do bad in school.
some classes
98. I get a lot of mail.- i wish
99. I like hot tubs.
100. I like to be alone sometimes

What's Goin On
James Blake
Dec. 11th, 2004 @ 04:06 pm I'm Exhausted
How I'm Feelin: indescribableindescribable
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: Honey - Mariah Carey

Hey, I know I didn't updated yesterday, but I was so tired, not much happened though. Bio we got our semester projects - that'll be fun, i'm working with my table, Chris & Whitney @ 1st Lucy was waith us, but since Stephanie is leaving at the end of the semester, Lucy had to move but yeah, ok english, was the typical english class, Latin was good tho, Latin always makes my day better, haha. Well Becca was makin fun of my project & how I suck at Latin I kno she was joking, but it pissed me of so anyway she pushed me outta the chair & then I ripped all of the papers outta her binder & I threw them in the hall & Ben was sittin in the other classroom with the door closed with head phones on with music blaring & he came over & he's like I heard you guys, I heard shit fallin over & y'all screamin & I was like haha. It's gottin to the point of the year when nobody pays attention so we got back our Plutarch Test with I got a 50 on haha, & Hahn didn't do his hwk so he was like Arlesa can I see ur book, & I was like I already ripped it out & handed it in & he was like damn & he was like well can I still see ur book & he wrote to my biggest fan & he signed it Hahn Je it made my day it was soo sweet  & then I wrote back to my biggest hero & I signed it haha but ok next when we were doin translation & Joey was sittin next to me & he was like can I borrow a piece of paper, BECCA - so I think he was a thing for her, but she's like whatever & then Cross & Hollman asked me for paper & Cross was like Hey Hubbs can I have a piece of paper & I started to crack up.I thought all of the drams & comedy was over, but the drama continues btwn me & Brandon - he ignored at the SDLC but he ignored in the hall way too, so I was like hmmmmm, what the fuck did I do? I don't get it, what ever I'm not gunna stress over it, he's a stupid boy 

What's Goin On
James Blake
Dec. 9th, 2004 @ 07:19 pm stolen from Corey
How I'm Feelin: anxiousanxious
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: Since You Been Gone
[[Post a comment with a memory of me.
Any memory.
Then post this in your journal.
See what people remember about you.]]

I gotta lotta hwk
What's Goin On
James Blake
Dec. 8th, 2004 @ 08:03 pm Thanx for Readin Katie (haha)
How I'm Feelin: stressedstressed
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: Grindin' - Clipse

I've come to another conclusion, this is my livejournal, so it should be just for me, right? Before I was only writing in this partly to get attention I guess, but who cares, I should just write what I feel & not care if I get any comments or not. So I no longer care who's readin this - it's just for me - if you read it & wanne let me kno what u think great, if not - i don't care.

So now what's I've said that... today Jazzy & I presented the Ruth powerpoint - I sorta feel like she didn't really know what she was talking about like she didn't do any of the work & she didn't really care, but maybe thas just me - Bailey on the other hand was a pretty cool partner in Bio - we got a 78 i think, so my final grade was a 67 on the test - hey i passed, & my semester grade is like an 82 - a lot better than i thought - so yeah

I inadvertedly said somethin rude to Anne - i really didn't mean it & she looked really mad & she fucuk u & i couldn't tell if she was serious or not - i really didn't mean it  & i'm really really sorry -

y am i such an asshole

What's Goin On
James Blake
Dec. 7th, 2004 @ 10:39 pm Subject or Not?
How I'm Feelin: indescribable i hate kristen - steeeeven
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: Laguna Beach season finale

A - Act your age?: sometimes

B - Born on what day of the week?: Saturday, I think

C - Chore you hate?: taking out the trash

D - Dad's name?: jesse

E - Essential makeup item?: lip gloss & vanilla sugar bath & body works lip balm

F - Favorite actor?: idk will smith

G - Gold or silver?: silver.

H - Hometown?: b-more

I - Instruments you play?: piano

J - Job title?: um… student, but I think I should drop out haha

K - Kids?: no thanks. no time soon.

L - Living arrangements?: home.

M - Mum's name?:

- Number of people you've slept with?: well let me think - none

O - Overnight hospital stays? only when my my godmom was having her breast cancer removed & when my grandma was dying – don’t like hospital that much

P - Phobia?: clowns & dying

Q - Quote you like?: I like u, but just don’t touch me
I don’t have a better one

R - Religious affiliation?: christian

S - siblings?: none

T - Time you wake up?: school days
à around 6:00. Weekendsà

U - Unique habit?: I’ll get back to this one

V - Vegetable you refuse to eat?: okra

W - Worst habit?: biting or chewing my nails. spending money.

X - X-rays you've had?: wrist in 3rd grade

Y - Yummy food you make?: mac & cheese

Z- Zodiac Sign?: taurus

What's Goin On
James Blake
Dec. 7th, 2004 @ 06:43 pm Subject or Not?
How I'm Feelin: deviousdevious
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: Laguna Beach

Well today was pretty boring and there's no one tree hill tonite :( ok i've made a pact with myself, i'm gunna update my not just for myself but also for my readers - so could all my readers out there leave me comments to let me know what they think of my journal & what not i would really appreciate it - thanks so much.

Well today, nothing much happened - but there's bio presentation 2morrow 2/Bailey, I hope things go well, - i better go work on hwk now - i may be on later so yeah


                                    <3 Hubby

What's Goin On
James Blake
Dec. 6th, 2004 @ 08:15 pm Subject or Not?
Whose goin to the Mercantile Tennis Challenge?????? - y'all should go - it may not be as awesome cause Roddick & Blake won't be there - but there'll still be awesome tennis
What's Goin On
James Blake
Dec. 6th, 2004 @ 07:11 pm It's Been A Long Time
How I'm Feelin: hopefulhopeful
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: Drop it Like It's Hott

It's been a long time since I wrote to y'all. What all has happened? Let's see, in my last entry, my grandpa had died, but I'm over that now, I was just shocked to hear what happened when I did. Um what did I do around Halloween? I went to Fall Ball, which was pretty bad, not many people were there, but it was ok. On Halloween, I went to tennis like I do every other Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. In November lets see I went to the student diveristy leadership conference thing with Nia, it was pretty ok, except for the fact that I was ignored by Brandon the whole time, which I don't get cause he usually talks to me infront of his friends, but that's his problem. That was basically my sweet november. Umm... Dec 3rd was my mommy's b-day & Noelle's. But anyway, Latin has been going well, TP is a pothead, Cross & Erman & Hollman are all mentally challenged, Je is an alcholic & all of the other girls are cool except SH who is obsessed w/Ben jk. J asked me to get him a fake id - but I was like yeah, ok i'll let u kno - i won't get him one tho. Tennis is goin well to, Kenny G & Joe really don't like each other (cause Kenny took Joe's place on the tennis team - but Kenny was in 8th grade so technically it wasn't Joe's place cause he was only in 7th grade at the time) & it was funny 2 watch them play one another, cause Kenny kept looking up @ me & he was makin fun of Joe & I felt bad cause Joe's family was right there and today I talked 2 Kenny & he was like ur my spectator & my support system - aaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwww. I love Kenny - platonically tho

Bio update - I failed today's test 55 baby - but if bailey & I get 100 on the project (not likely(never kno)) then i'll have a 77.5 so a 78 - but this is the worst I've ever done a test, my mom was yellin at me cause i told her I didn't do well in bio - I didn't tell her my grade, but she was like maybe u need to stop tennis for good - & I was like what the hell, fuck u ** I didn't say these things only thinking them cause if I said them I'd be dead right now ** tennis is the only thing that I live for & even if I fail outta school, I could go pro - take a/b ten years 2 break through the circut - but I could still go pro - so any way she was like ever since u stopped playin the piano - ur grades have dropped u should take piano again - she was like u were amazing & people saw stuff in u blah blah blah - but my mom is too stupid 2 realize I stopped takin piano after my grandma died cause after she died i didn't have ne 1 to play for ne more - no 1 enjoyed my piano playin as much as she did - so i'll never play it for ne 1 again - I swear to God - i'll never play the piano for ne 1 ever again - only for myself. But yeah I was only tryin 2 say that mom was being a real bitch & then we had eye appointment - to find out y I always see white spots - I have a stigmatism - nuthin serious - just an abnormal curvature of the eye - i may not ever be able to wear contact again - but apparently i was born like this




                         <3 HUBBY

Aunt Audrey - the one aunt I have never really liked - I just began 2 like her after grandpa die - yeah well she has cancer in one of her kidneys - which only has a 5 year survivor span -- so pray for me or keep in you thoughts - I would really appreciate it thanks

What's Goin On
James Blake
Oct. 14th, 2004 @ 09:26 am Bye Bye Grandpa
How I'm Feelin: crushedcrushed
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: Missin You - Puff Daddy

Yesterday was a really bad day, well more sad than bad. Mommy woke me up to tell me that she was going to the hospital, becasue she heard that grandpa was found unresponsive. It turns out that by the time she found out where he was, he had already died. She came home & told me I nearly passed out, His funeral is on Monday & I'll tell you the details later if you wanna come. Well I'm gunno sign off now - Oh if your in any of my classes on Monday could you take notes for me please, for Bio, Latin & English - thank you so much.

What's Goin On
James Blake
Oct. 9th, 2004 @ 03:17 pm Now That's Wassup
How I'm Feelin: lovedloved
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: watching Hocus Pocus on Disney Channel


You're the color blue. You have the three c's in life--you're cool, caring and confident. Trustworthy and honest, people are naturally attracted to you. You're unusually optimistic, but that makes life all the better. You're an imaginative person who loves sleeping and dreaming. Hard-working and determined, you excell in school. You're everybody's favorite, and this is because you have this undefined richness in your personality and attitude. Mild-tempered and stable. Not to mention very intelligent. Along with the fact that you're conservative, you're worried about the environment. So basically, you're a generous, dependable and devoted--just the kind of person everybody needs. Wouldn't it be great if everybody in the world were like you?

i stole this from Corey What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!)


Well since i last updated everything's been cool - except I have a C in great civ & I'm failing bio but that's ok. I just drank two cokes & ate a harvest bar so I'm sorta hyper.Tennis is goin well - I still have all boys on my court but I guess that's not such a bad thing - their all really nice & I still see Chris right before my lesson so he brightens up my day - his daughter is adorable. Last night Rachel, Racquel & I went to the CHC dance last night - it was sorta boring - but if i had danced nonstop the whole time I would have lost like 2 pounds of water - it was like a steam room in their. Oh yeah Latin is goin well - Mr. Norton is by far the coolest teacher this year.


Oh whose been to the movies? I have I saw The Forgotten it was really good it's not scary - who ever hasn't seen it should check it out right away. Are there any other good movies out i wanna see Taxi - but I heard that it's stupid - so let me know about upcoming movies & maybe we'll go see them sometime - leave me some comments. Holla Back


What's Goin On
James Blake
Sep. 26th, 2004 @ 01:58 pm What's Been Happenin'
How I'm Feelin: highon life - haha
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: Locked Up - Akon & Styles P

A lot has gone on in the past week, well not really. We (the 9th grade) went to Genesee Valley. That was cool, our group didn't really do anything though, the people in our group were cool ( Noelle, Jane, Lauren Sless, Natalie, Isabel, Hannah, Katie, Ugochi and Me), but our conselor - Jeff was really weird - he always talked about bonding & being like sisters & we were like yeah - whatever and he always killed the mood by talking a/b working together or something if we were goofing off or playing around or not being serious. We didn't really do anything spectacular - but Hannah got to the top of the ladder thing we did - it was hilarious Isabel, Katie, Jane lifted her up w/the rope so she could reach the next bars - it was funny. My tent group was cool too, (Me, Rachel & Ugochi) We had great late night convos - baseballs - haha. So yeah - after our trip we came back & Ugochi & I worked out - then we had tennis practice that was boring then real school started on Wednesday.Since then I haven't really done anything interesting, school's been pretty boring, but stressful. Oh well. So whose going to homecoming - I'm not - i don't think cause I don't have a ticket or a date - so unless I miraculously get a ticket this week - I'm probably not going. I'm going to watch Matchstick Men now - So au Revoir. Leave me a Comment - tell me if ur goin 2 Homecoming or the CHC dance on the 8th

What's Goin On
James Blake
Sep. 16th, 2004 @ 12:39 pm I'm Back Finally
How I'm Feelin: calmcalm
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: none

            Well, it’s been long time since I last wrote – a whole summer. Since my last entry Ugochi & I got over our stupid little thing. I worked @ Red Hot Summer Camp – with Dasha & Grisha – that was cool, the kids were cute, then I went to France & England and met some really cool people, like Kristen & Alyse. The trip was really cool, but the food sucked. Beans on Toast & butter on hamburgers, eww. And our money was worth nothing over there, one pound = 2 dollars – so I ended up spending over 300 dollars without realizing it. Oh well, I did get to go to Roland Garros, Wimbledon, Buckingham Palace, & London Eye which is the largest Ferris Wheel in the world, it took 40 minutes to go all the way around. So then I came home and did nothing for 2 weeks and then tennis practice started… Krista quit because of Mic, who is the largest asshole in the world, so this year we really don’t have a chance at winning unless all doubles win their matches, which may be possible. Then school started, the summer went by really fast. We had our back to school dance, which really wasn’t that awesome, there were like 75 guys there & 200 girls. But so far most of the teachers are cool. Mr. Norton is by far the best though, he’s really funny, but the class is boring. Walking over to Gilman with Becca every other day is really interesting too. 2nd day of class, the guys were dancing in the hall, and there was also the incident with Samuel and Ben Jarso and “spirit fingers” ha-ha. The next day Sam Frank fell out of his chair twice and then the guys were like sword fighting w/their hands, it was really immature but it was so funny. Yesterday, Joseph Hahn – he’s a 10th grader & he’s like 2x the size of me & Becca. Anyway, he locked us out of the room, but he would crack the door a little bit, so one time when he cracked the door, Becca & I went charging and Becca but her leg inbetween the door so Hahn let go of the door and Becca pushed me by accident and we both went flying, it was really funny, though. Jimmy saw the whole thing and he came in the room & he was like ladies, if he ever does anything else just let me know and I’ll give him a little smack on the head – that was funny cause he came in like 5 times just to say that. But yeah, this year has been pretty good, we have a lotta knew people in our grade. 17 to be exact & I don’t even know half of them – oh well. Oh, I broke Maria's toe in soccer in PE, I feel so bad we went to kick the ball and we kicked each other, she kicked my arch & my arch stopped her foot & I broke her toe. I feel so bad. Speaking of injuries, Blake is playing tennis again after crashing into a net post and breaking one f his vertabrea- he has a virus that affects his balance & vision - but he should get over it in about 12 weeks, well that's all that's going on with me. i'M Gunna call Maria now. bYE

What's Goin On
James Blake
Jun. 26th, 2004 @ 07:45 pm Boy Bands
How I'm Feelin: grumpygrumpy
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: some game thas on tv

Today was an unbelievably bad & boring day. But I'll tell you a/b yesterday 1st. Well I spent another day talkin 2 Ugochi on the phone & I once again stayed home & did nothing. I was looking through my old cds & cassettes (haha) and I came to the conclusion that there is at least one ugly member in each "boy" band. Nync - Joey & Chris, Backstreet Boys - Howie, LFO - the guy w/blond hair on top & brown/black hair on the bottom, B2K - Ras B - and the list goes on. I wonder is Lou Pearlman who happened 2 discover all of them except B2K knows what he's doing, is it on purpose, I think so, but it's just my oppinion.That was Friday.


Today, my meeting w/Holabird didn't happen Mrs. Mary went on vaca & supposedly forgot a/b me. So I don't think the whole sponsered thing will happen now. I came home & we fixed up our half screened in porch - there's this mysterious hole in one of the panels & we have no door, it cracked, so where getting a new one. In the past couple days I had been seeing all these baby spiders & they were freaking me out - I found out where they came from, In between our basement door & basement screen door some lovely spiders had laid their whatever - really big egg & thas were the spiders were coming from, I vacumed them up & everything & an exterminator is coming on Monday - because we have a squirrel in our attic & a mechanic or sumthing is going on tuesday - 2 fix our garage door which almost killed me. Here's the story: Our trash cans are in our garage &  taking the trash out, lucky me, my mom was too lazy - anyway, I had just rolled the 2nd trash can out & was on my may in & the garage door slams shut. It turns out that the spring had just broke - which a/b 6 months earlier a guy who came 2 look @ the door said was bound 2 happen - cause the springs needed 2 be replaced. If I had been under the door - I wouldn't be typing this right now. Imagine 300 +  pounds falling on my head - not good.  Now back to my day, I was doing all this stuff for my mom cause she's too fuckin lazy to do stuff for herself  & I spray painted & made our porch pretty around 2 Ugochi calls & asks for directions to Towson High & I attempt to give them too her & then tell her to go on Mapquest. She told me she would be able come play tennis but she never told me that she was home by her lonesome - if she had - My mom & I could have come pick her up. But no, it wasn't until waiting for her to show up @ Towson & then going home, that she told me she was home by herself & her parents in so may words - wouldn't be able to bring her. I was really pissed cause this was the last time before I go away that I would be able to play tennis unless it was @ like 10 o'clock @ night. In the nicest way possible Ugochi ruined my day, wasted time that'll I'll never get back - I COULD HAVE CALLED, AYANNA, KEENEN, OR EVEN CHRIS, but I called her, I could be playing right now. I was and am so pissed. Tomorrow morning I get to wake up @ 6 & play w/ my mom who critisizes me for everything, so I get yelled @ for messing up & getting frustrated & I'm mad because not once did my mom say thank you for your help or please could you do this. I was ordered around like a maid. I'm sick of it. Her bf gets more attention than I do. Maybe I'm selfish & I want too much. But I really don't think so. Normally, I wouldn't get mad if ordered me around once or twice - but like 20 times - & seriously it got to the point that I had 2 ice my knees I was going up steps so much. Tendenits suck man, I don't feel loved - I'm depressed & I'm mad. I think I'll run away - my mom would only, miss me cause no one would be here do her errands.


Leave me a comment & tell me if I'm wrong for how I feel.

What's Goin On
James Blake
Jun. 24th, 2004 @ 01:30 pm I Stole This From Corey, sry, I Wanna See What You Say
How I'm Feelin: cheerfulcheerful
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: none
am i..
- am i cute?
- am i crazy?
- am i lovable?
- am i funny?
- am i annoying?
- am i psycho?
- am i daring?
- am i a good person?

would you..
- would you hug me?
- would you miss me if i was gone?
- would you kiss me?
- would you make out with me?
- would you listen to my problems?
- would you be a good friend?
- would you be my best friend?

would you ever..
- would you ever go out with me?
- would you ever do it again if you already have?
- would you ever marry me if you could?
- would you ever talk bad about me if we ever broke up?
- would you ever make out with me in a cemetery?
- would you ever make out with me in the rain?
- would you ever snuggle with me?

if you could..
- if you could give me a new name, it would be?
- if you could do one thing with me, it would be?
- if you could give me a piece of advice, it would be?
- if you could kidnap me for a day, where would we go?

just a few questions..
- what do you love about me?
- what do you hate about me?
- what is my best quality?
- if you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
- what is your honest opinion about me?
- what would you do if i sang out of tune?
- what song reminds you of me?
- do i remind you of any characters on tv?
- have you ever had a dream about me?
- do you think i'm a virgin?
- if you just met me, how old would you guess i am?
- am i huggable?
- if you could give me anything, what would it be?
- if you could promise me anything, what would it be?

- am i ugly, average, decent, good looking, beautiful, ect.?
- if you could describe me in one word, what would that word be?
- when we first met, what were your thoughts?
- if you had to describe to someone who i am and what i am like, what would you tell them?
- what are my faults?
- what are my strengths?
- do you wish we were closer?
- why aren't we closer?
What's Goin On
James Blake
Jun. 24th, 2004 @ 11:56 am Lucy's Address
                Lucy Scholz
Camp Mont Shenandoah
                HCR 04,
Box 19
Millboro Springs, VA 24460
What's Goin On
James Blake
Jun. 24th, 2004 @ 10:08 am Leave Me Some Comments
How I'm Feelin: excitedexcited
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: Cosby Show

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You Must look @ my subrofile, its only been visited 90 times & 13 of those times was cause of me. Anyway, I leave for France/England in 20 days, & I have a meeting w/Holabird to talk a/b buisiness Saturday morning. I'm supposed to play tennis w/Ugochi on Saturday, but it doesn't look like it cause she has asked her father yet. So I'll plan on not playing tennis and my mom & I can do something else with our saturday afternoon. But other people are welcome 2 come, it's @ 3 @ Towson High. You can call me if you wanna come or u can just show up & surprise me. That'll be fun. I really think if your reading this right now, you should leave me a comment & say hey, cause I don't fell loved. I only have 8 comments when people like, bailey, corey & catherine have like 100, so leave me comments. k, okay. My life is really boring right now, nothing is happening. But next week at least I'll be working and I'll interact with people other than my mom, grandpa & the tv. So I'll leave now, cause no ones online. I know it's summer, but if your at home, you must get online in the morning. It's a must or at least around 12, so people can talk 2 you. I think I'll write more later, I may be dead from boredom.

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James Blake
Jun. 23rd, 2004 @ 12:27 pm Subject or Not?
How I'm Feelin: contemplativecontemplative
What I'm Listenin' 2 Now: Full House theme song

I’m back finally, watching the full house episode w/Little Richard. It’s really scary I remember this episode & I have the tape of the songs he’s singing. I’m such a loser, but it brings back good memories from when I was like 5. The best shows were, the real Power Rangers, Gullah Gullah Island, Full House, Saved By the Bell, Clarissa Explains it All, Allegra's Window, Family Matters, Pink Panther, Barney, Flash Forward -- the original Zoog Disney. Those were the days. I wish I was little cause u have no problems and if you do you would just get a stuffed animal & crawl up in your parents bed. But getting older isn't that bad, you get more advantages, I'll just leave it @ that. I'm signing off cause I'm bored & no one else is online, so I'll leave. Adious - or however you spell it.

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James Blake